My pet peeves:

• Mom jeans
• Kids on your profile pic
• Sharing an email address with your spouse

Why do we do these things?  I think we go through stages in life where we either get married or have a kid, and they become our identity.  When I had Paige, I was no longer Heidi, I was Paige’s mom.  I was a mom.  I didn’t know how to be someone else without being her mom.  I still struggle with that- being me.  Not Ed’s wife, not Paige’s mom, but just me.

I worry that sometimes my daughter will not know really who I am.  I don’t really know who my mom is, as just a person, without being my mom.  It’s very difficult to seperate the two.  When I’m without my daughter, all I can think about is her.  Sometimes I feel purposeless and uninteresting, like I don’t know what to say or what to do around people without her.

When I first started social networking, after I had my daughter (yeah, I was a little late),  I went to go choose my profile pic, and wanted to pick a cute picture of my daughter (she’s damn adorable), but I realized that I need to be someone on my own, and this was the first step- putting a picture of me!  I still have to fight the urge, but I think it’s important in having my own life, and not letting my own personality get taken over by my family.

I want to be a fun, sexy girl that is more than just a wife or a mom.  No mom jeans.  Not Ed and Heidi, and not Paige’s mom. Just me.